Never ever

The phatness of mizz gorgeous eliza

A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what i've done wrong
And how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention
Or did I not give enough affection
Not only will your answers keep me sane
But i'll know never to make the same mistake again

You can tell me to my face
Or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter
Either way i've have to know
Did I never treat you right
Did I always start the fight
Either way i'm going out of my mind
All the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinnin'
Boy i'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate
I take a shower
I will scour
I will roam
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned yeah

Flexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from a to zee
Conversations, hesatations in my mind
You got my conscience Asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I aint done nothing wrong,
no I'm just waiting
cos I heard that this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole
Never ever have I ever felt so sad T
he way i'm feeling yeah you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own piece of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way i'm feeling yeah it just don't feel right
I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace
gotta feel at ease
Need to be
Free from pain
Go insane
My heart aches yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs through my head
The alphabet runs right from a to zed
Conversations, hesatations in my mind
You got my concience asking questions that i can't find
I'm not crazy I'm sure I aint done nothing wrong
Now i'm just awaiting
cos I heard that this feeling won't last that long

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
you can write it in a letter babe
Cos I really need to know
You can write it in a letter babe

I guess it;s true

The phatness of mizz gorgeous eliza

Have you heard people say that whenever you mention about buying a new car in front of your current car you're using,the car will tend to 'naik darah' ? i guess it's true. Mengada betulla. Yesterday,went for a meeting at MJ.Saw this one nice Honda Civic ( Yes putri ...similar to your car) *wink*. I was saying to Alfyan.."Hmm..Alfyan,'Sibik' ni under consideration ni..Lawa la pulak." A few minutes later, my 'Ferrari' buat hal.Temperature naik la pulak.Marah la pulak.

My advise, please do not mention of buying a new car when you are driving your car. Cause you hell a lot of trouble and money.Tonyot!

Relationship:What say you.

The phatness of mizz gorgeous eliza

Relationship can be beautiful,ugly,addictive ..anything. But to find one good relationship needs one hell of a hard work.Hard work in the sense of patience,trust and 'jaga hati'.Shiish.

The earlier part of it,everything seems exciting,wonderful (and the list goes on and on and on).But do you realised that on that particular time, you're just in the stage of 'ice-breaking' session with your partner?

I had a discussion with a friend last Friday about relationships : earlier..later... According to her,relationship is never been ugly or something that you would expect to give you a hard time one day.Partly it's because she's still in the 'lovey-dovey' moment.(You know..the "It's ok sayang.I'll do everything for you.)Bbluuerk! But,come to think about it,whenever you start having a relationship in your life,here comes trouble.Be prepared.

Yes,it can be a happy,great beautiful moments at the beginning but as years pass by,you would somehow or rather realised that it's just a routine or you need a relationship in your life in order to be categorised as a normal human being.Basically,it's like a handphone.Nowadays, a mobile phone is not needs or wants but a MUST.Same goes to relationships as well.It's a MUST to have a relationship to fit in into the community.

In my opinion,I dont think relationship is a happy moment at all time.It can be fun at one time,but dont you feel by having it, you're actually transforming yourself into someone you're not or transforming your partner's life into someone they refuse to become? So what's the beauty of having a relationship then? Not being hipocrit or anything ,I admit that I do have my own but I'm not the type that "Ok baby,everything will go your way.I love you.Therefore,I'll do whatever you've wish me to do." Hell no.

I aint not changing my personality,my style,my attitude or whatever just because I end up being your girlfriend or fiancee.I'll do whatever I feel like doing.I'll do it my way.Whatever I think it's fine with me.Why must I listen to someone who's not even my husband ,right? Like the minah rempit always say "Lu sapa nak sekat-sekat wa."

What I'm trying to say is at the earlier part of a relationship,you have to discover more about your partner(if you think that person is a keeper la kan) , care not love,take it slow dont rush.Dont be too excited of the relationship you're into right now,learn and discover more about your partner. I bet you'll never be in a 'ha-ha' moment everytime ,like what my friend had claimed.There will be a time when you will feel like ,"Should I shoot him now?" when they became a pain in the ass.All the people in more than 5 years in a relationship say "Yeayyaaahh!"

But although you've face so many shitty times because of your partner,you cry,scream,acting nuts, but at the end of the day you'll still love them.In fact, you'll love them more as you've learn from the mistakes.That is what I feel when I had learn my lesson for being unreasonable.In fact,we both did.

Shit. now I dont know how to end this entry. hmm..so,what say you about relationships? ;>